Not here at the moment..

Probably gone hillward…

Us overlooking a snowy corrie You could think of us as a human, but we feel are often just LARPing a human being within a 21st century Western society.

With all the slightly cringe worthy tells. Slightly off intonation and phrasing. Costume that’s trying just a bit too hard. Only able to operate within the strict parameters of the designated scenario. Not sure if it’s a step up from feeling like a badly written AI, or just different.

Some days we do feel all too much like The Dixie Flatline, unable to ever evolve.

Weirdly, three times we have mapped our consciousness to compare against images of AI systems. The said McCoy, Eunice the laminar in Agency and because someone compared our writing to Poe, the AI hotel in Altered Carbon.

But that’s just me fronting as our Analyst, for an inkling into the rest of us, see the About.

Transistion perception ~ Us v Them

We wrote a version of this on the fediverse a long whil ago, and kind of lost it, so here for posterity Funny, when we first introduce the fact that we are trans to people, we often have to correct their idea of what our transition will lead to. They bizarrely seem to think that we are looking to give up our strength and resilience. Which is really odd to us, as we have never seen that through the male/female binary....

Thoughts on prolonged death

It has long occurred to us, that many people’s views on death and dying have been skewed over the years in the society we live in. Several key moments have crystallised this for us. The most recent being visiting a relative in a care home that is in the late stages of Parkinson’s and old age. She receives, for our society, what would be considered extremely good care. It is a place where the staff care, and the facilities are good....

Autism over the years, why does it get harder and not easier?

We have been musing and ruminating on why some aspects of our life have got harder over the years. After all, it is not like the pre/post autism diagnosis us are different beings pivoting on that external validation. We haven’t suddenly gone, “Oh, we are autistic, we should now find X difficult”. Certainly, there is plenty that we have always found difficult or tiring, that we can subsequently frame in the language of autism to help explain and understand....

Connections

Some things we wrote in warmer times, but were reminded of when writing about relation. Given the reductionist allure of science to break things into ever smaller pieces, which is a powerful tool, the resultant myopia can leave one out of touch with much larger complex systems. It is as a constellation of complexity that we each move through vastly greater complex systems. We can chose to acknowledge this and be in a state of awareness of our relation to it, or not....

Neurodivergence & Shamanic Relation

World Tree, split into the three realms. (Click to enlarge) So, this is likely to be deeply intertwined with our thoughts on ritual/instinctive magic, and our complicated relationship with various ontological/philosophical schools of thought and how we reconcile various aspects of spiritual/occult practice with scientific method and logic. That said, we feel that deserves a proper examination at a later date. Suffice it to say, for now, we watch science and religion being invoked with the same fervour and blind obedience and lack of personal critical examination....